Conflicted

My night didn't turn out how I wanted it to at all. One of my best friends jeremy is going to vegas for four days in october and he want kris and I and our other two best friends to go with him. He said that it would be about 500 per person for a flight and hotel. That is a decent price, but it doesn't include alcohol money. Well I am also going on a week long cruise to Mexico in December and I have to pay 800 for my ticket to that in october too. I'm pissed because I'm positive that I won't be able to afford both, and im totally paying for the cruise because I really want to go on that. It really sucks because kris will go to vegas without me and still have enough money to pay for his ticket on the cruise, and katreena and jord'enn are going too. So that leaves me, no going to be able to go to vegas, and I hate it. I don't know what I'm going to do. I'm miserable just thinking about it. So I guess we will see what happens. I'm not really in the mood to even think about it because it makes me angry.